Featured post

When inspiration strikes...

I only wrote one blog last year, pitiful really for someone who considers themselves a writer, but then again, I either haven't been wel...


There was an error in this gadget

Sunday, 4 October 2009

Coming to a close.

Well 2009 has been going by like a whirlwind for me.

I spent the majority of the year in Portugal as I said, but did not end up moving to Boston, U.S.A. To cut a long story short, the college told me the wrong info for a year and a half, getting my hopes up. I had to have a degree, be studying for one or be American to study the course I wanted.

I've enrolled on a Journalism course at The Journalist Works in Brighton instead, which I start in January for 4 months.

I aim to spread the truth wherever possible, working for the most un-biased organisation I can.

Anyway, I can't think of much else to write.

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

All grown up?

I've been reminiscing a lot recently. Mainly due to the fact, that this year there are going to be some massive changes for me.

Life is way too short, so I've decided to spend summer in Lagos, Portugal, letting off some steam and spending time with my good friends over there. Then I will be back in the U.K for a few weeks in summer, to say my good-byes and sort shit out, before I head to Boston, U.S.A for a years college.

The latter is dependent on my enrolling in a couple of weeks. Once that is done, I need a job, then I can apply for my visa. Then it will be real.

I am excited, yet scared, of what the future holds. Scared in a good way though. New people to meet, new experiences, a new life really.

My 22nd birthday is in 2 months time. I really am an adult now. Scary huh?

Those years have gone so damn fast. The good times I had in my teenage years, from 13-19
were amazing. The tough times, helped make me what I am today. My period of bad health in 07/08 also made me what I am. (Live life, don't drift through it aimlessly.)

I have a yearning to do something with my life, be further educated, get a career and travel the world with it.

Even though I am leaving the U.K, I will of course miss my friends and family. But I can't stay here just for them. I have friends, but no social life. We all have different social circles and lives now, it doesn't work to hang out all the time, like we used to. When I was a child, I was dependent on my family, I am no more.

So, heres to making my own way in life and you too. I feel refreshed, optimistic, energetic and determined.

...This blog was inspired by my i-tunes choosing songs today, by bands I used to listen to regularly. Fenix tx and Sum 41 reminding me of summer 2001, when I was 14, one of the best years of my life. Yeah, I'm reminiscing...

Saturday, 10 January 2009

Changing times

In May it will have been 6 years since I left high school. A lot has changed since then, as can be expected of course.

High school and college times were amazing, social wise. The music scene in our local area was building up with a new generation of bands, plenty of new people to meet as bands played in different areas and going to college parties and the pub, etc.

The majority of people I went to school with, I rarely see or am in touch with. The ones who will be or could be friends for life, we are still in touch. Still, with these friends I have come to realise we are drifting apart in a way. Not a bad way though.
We all have our own lives, new friends, jobs, maybe children and different schedules. So, it is hard to be seeing each other every day like before and every weekend like before. We may not make as much effort, but not necessarily on purpose, but because we have different motives in life now.

The time I spend with this small group of friends, mostly individually, is always fun and worth it.

I do miss the feeling of having a big social life and the times I had a social group.

Having various health problems over '07/'08 kept me out of the loop. But, I still think this wouldn't have made much of a difference social wise. Having these health problems helped me realise who my closest and now true friends are. No offence to anyone, there aren't many. As I said, we all have our own lives and we can't be there for all of our friends all of the time, no matter how much we would want to.

When you can't get out the house, a simple call, a text, message on facebook/myspace, just saying "hello, how are you?" is all it takes to realise these are the ones worth making the effort for.

I've come to the decision that 2009 is the year I will get on with my life as an adult. I have a new lease on life. I feel healthier than I have done in such a long time. I am content, the depression I had is nearly non-existent. My plans are to complete my driving course and do a 1 year college course in Boston, U.S.A. With that should hopefully bring a new social life and many other new opportunities.

I also may be going to Portugal for the summer. There the climate is amazing, my social life will be good and I will hopefully be able to work there. I have some good friends in Portugal and it would be great to experience life there a bit more, especially as last summer I failed! (Broken ankle.)

Yes, that means I will hardly be in England this year or next. But, life is too short and I don't want to hang around hoping that something will happen.

I have no social life, no job, no boyfriend, nothing holding me back. So, to hell with it...I'm off.

A few months of planning and my life will hopefully be back on track.

Happy 2009 to everyone. I hope this year, whether good or bad, you can make something out of it.